haha. here's one yamapi's post i feel like posting.
i dunno why...
wakaka. =p

vol. 1921
2008/11/28
PM7:56

Konbanwa!

Today I want to try the usual greeting style! (note : he didn't use his trademark greeting "konbanchiwa" like usual)

Yesterday I looked into the mirror when I woke up in the morning

I thought in my heart, a man with such atrocious sleeping face, will everyone want to support him?

I want to ask myself a little:

Yamashita Tomohisa, are you okay?

And what do everyone like about me?

I hate hardships, but I continue to pursue happy things. I think I would really mind when I see a sexy person, I would also think of things that are a little pervertic.

At times, I would also suddenly feel lonely.

And also be jealous.

Some feel that I'm an excellent person, but actually, I think I'm not at all.

I feel that I am just a normal 23 years old youth.

It's just that I hate losing more than the others.

It has been like this since young.

I think the difference between me and the other people is most probably only this.

Once in a while, I would think about some ridiculous problems like today!

What kind of character do I actually have ne~

I feel that I'm the one who cannot see through my own character the most!

I think I should understand myself more deeply.

And then increasing the number of things which I can do!

My current self

is thinking about these kind of things

Tomorrow, I will also write this kind of nonsensical entry

credits : Lia

what coincides. HAHA. :]

decided to be diligent for once and find my yamapi's nikki(diary thingy) translations.
wahahaha. =O yuppy and i found! ^^ and it's so updated!!! yes i'm so gonna link it. ^^

MY LIST...

MUST watch!!!
code blue :]
code blue special :]
love or bread
kame's one pound gospel
yamapi's lunch queen

watch ji te ji te sianz...
yang jia jiang
hot shot
miss no good
single dad in love
coffee prince
goong s

tentative
boys before flower[korean's version of hana yori dango]

hurray! finally i'm out of the house other than 初一 what a zzz cny this year.
went k with pj... hmm and i think my voice is in a bad shape today. AHHAHA. =x super off form la. so.. didn't really have the kick after. =/ and weirdly, we managed to kinda finish our songs which normally they will be several pages left to sing when there's only half and hour left. haha.

heehee and after that we chiong to ehub to catch movie. yea the one i want. lols. :]
and we saw jensen. he got hair! didn't catch up with him cuz we need to rush for our movie. oh and yea we missed abit of the front part. :( we smuggled shilin ji pai and chocolate ice blended into the theater. it's so dark so it's kinda hard to eat the ji pai. gahhh.. and weird this theater has the couple seat setting so we cannot put the ice blended btw us.

went home and my sis cum my old friends were mj-ing. haha i sat down to kaypoh awhile. and my sis teaching my mum to play mj now. after that she wants mum to teach papa. lols. dunno how's the tutorial going...
hmm... imagine...... family day = play mj!!! WAHAHA. i'm kinda looking forward to it, seems exciting. hahaz.

and ppl wonder why even when it comes to watching dramas... i can still procrastinate. yes i wonder how and why i am like that too. o.O zzzzzz...
and i think cuz there's too many that i dunno which one to start from. HAHA. XD

Theme song in code blue. arrgghh. so nice. :]
but it's uber difficult to sing. the contractions they used is lyk OM*G. =x
tried mastering and i'm not even half done. takku.

back to code blueing. and i cried for every episode. touching and sad. takku.
suddenly got my bug for watching back.

i wanna watch that moviee. haiz. i'm getting nowhere i'm aware.
silently...

it's either too many events in a day or rot and decay... what luck... =/

and i'm stunned, stumped at what i saw.
unbelievable.





in a daze...
seemed soul-less
O_O

better?
WORST.














FUCK!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.
and hope 2009 will be a betttter year!!! :]
[this line seems to be late for 25 days.]

OMGG. reunion dinner was like a warrr!!! as in seriously the kitchen is having some battle la! it was chaotic, erratic and totally OMG. hahas. but kinda fun though. i helped to decorate the marble cake my aunt bought for my not-very-little cousin using nutella and some non-porky sticks. haha.
i was kinda horrible cuz the skin will peel from the sponge core after applying nutella. so... i sld have taken the skin out first. but it was too late after i realised this fact. so i just carried on.


it was a spread as always...
sweet prawns
sweet & sour fish
hongkong style garoupa
chap cai (za cai?)
duck
chicken that looks like bathed in green curry
brocorok (nyonya dish) [i dunno how to spell >.< though i'm 1/4 baba]
yu sheng
bdaycake + ice cream + long gan
champaign
desert [some banana + choco in skin done by sis]

and i was wondering why there ain't abalone on the table just now. but i'm not a spoiled kid okays, just that i have that once a year so it's kinda disappointing. hmm... maybe it's bcuz of the recession and mama can't digest them well i guess.
oh yea and i ate untill full full again! yes i see the need to sweat it out after cnyyy.

this crazy, this irrational.
yet unable to ascertain what's it.
or... wanting it to be it.

asking yettt another...
whatever it is...
it won't change anything.
if it could, it's clear what's it.

maybe...
the first line had already answered all that is.
as quoted from.

mass exercising day at ECP. with 12 ppl? ...so cannot be considered as class outing la huh. LOLS.
went there for biking until pi gu pain pain. lol. but after that it's ok le. and since eons i rode a bike. and think the previous time was band chalet and i rmbed i still lang ga that time!... with keith i think.
OH YA! and we saw willian tan there too, he was training i guess. haha he was smiling cuz i think he knows we recognised him! den we heard somebody behind says... "...william tan, i shake hands with him before... blabla" LOL. den me n sw started giggling. hahahahaha. XD
and this person turns out to be kum hung. OMG so comical. LOL. and after biking for awhile i saw huili. and i just shout out to her. i think she was kinda shocked. but i zoomed past too fast le so i didn't stop to talk to her. lols. and after that i hesitated to zoomed back to find her. but didn't in the end. haha. small small onions-cum-mjcians reunion.

after that had dinner at PP at pastamania and SHUTTLED back to bedok mrt! shuttle!!! XD k la admit i'm kinda auntie at such stuffs. what to do... i haven got reply for my interview yettt. :(
OH. and felix said he saw aik ho and his class going into giant. lol. wanted to say hi if i saw him, but didn't see. the other time saw him but i didn't wanted to say hi cuz i ain't sure it's him not. funny.

OMGGG. i uber full now. haha. but dinner at 85 with sw, kk and felix was nice. haha i think i'm weird... =/ though i live very near 85 but i rarely eat there. lols. haha and we discovered an uber nice oh ah jian(oyster+egg+starch) there, nearly ordered another plate. yum yum!!

before that we were mj-ing at jc's house. ahha. and i'm the biggest loser... but it's okay, so expected anyway. i'm really noob at mj. chocolaty milk shake!!! =p yum yum! and to balance for that i drank 800ml of H20. kudos! somedays i can really live like a camel and i don't feel thirsty at all. but at the end of the day when i realised i camel-ed for a day i start to gulp H20.

OH MY!!! i finally remembered the original think i wanted to blog about le. the correct one! i think my STM syndrome is deteriorating... =/ this is bad. it's like my brain has gone rusty or something and nowadays this have been happening. =/ it happened mostly on zy though. haha sorry gal.

ya back to the topic... i saw kelly pan jia li at the platform. lols. she just walk past me den i realised from lyk 10 cms away... she's her. lol. den i stalked her. i think she saw me. @.@ lol. i've been on this lately. bah bah bah. =/ i even did what a paparazzi will do. sheesh... >.< okays kinda scared of myself now. lol.




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i'm assuming that uni won't ever step foot. that has got to be a fact. =/
if not i'm dead. O.O yes so so dead. =/=/=/=/

WARNING: CHAPALANG post ahead!!! =/

^^
it'll be better the next time. whee~!
in crazy and hc mode. lols.
but i can tune to serious mode very fast.
and i find myself funny by that.
i'm missing deer alreadyyy!!! :(
err... the other way round, deer's missing out much. okies... deer's enjoying too! [becoming an ICEdeer waha =O]

though i cannot discern between the confusing range of that.
i must have been sleeping in lessons. =/
stupid kids. wrong phase la! change the zhi4 du4 thankew.
but this feels it. lols. yes i'm serious. insanely serious that is. zzz.
wad talking me...???
but i guess life is all about experiencing. yeap.

yes i was gong to go ard asking about that. rubbishy.
seriously worse than bbb lehhhh!!! rite rite?
she sees it too... i guess

prez. the shape's oval, i'm sure. no doubts or whatsoevers. whoahoo~
i will prove it by experiment. yes on that fatal day. @.@
lyk proofing earth is a sphere like that.

and what happened to that boy?
devoured by the stronger being. that is.

had interview today le. manz hope i can get the job although i'm unable to work on Sundays. :( takku. (geez) [only anime-er/otakus(lol jkjk) will know wad's this. lol.] and spore... she really is a small small country. haha. cuz we met 2 other mjcians and 1 ex tpjcian at the same interview batch. lol. though i only know 2 of the three people. cian sounds so nice, don't u all agree??? lols.

oh no i forgot what i wanted to blog about le. haha.
or maybe there isn't any actually. -.-



OH OK i rmb le!
i think what i'm gonna say may be boring/complicated. haha but dun care i just wanna say. dun wanna read just IGNORE. not that i didn't warn you ppl. lol.
lol i dunno how to start.... =/ abruptly, here goes...

when a society-labeled-conformist yearns and switch to become an individualist opposing the conformists, conforming to being an individualist. that person is still a CONFORMIST. just that he's switches from the majority to the minority. the reason for this switch may be the label in itself, stamped for eternity by society... or some other i dunno reasons.
but actually wad's wrong with being a conformist in instances when those are really your own true mindset. why are labels so taken into consideration? so mush so that one wants to switch to being an individualist but actually that's not the true inner you. and yes and i'm guilty of suchs at times. =/
and yes you may say individual is not minority cuz it's only ONE, ONE PERSON. but i'm refering to the several dozens of individualists wrt[sia la i miss writing this short form.. LOL oh and it's for chem and sometimes maths] different issues and matters. simplicitly, people who have their own single way of thinking and doing thinks la huh but varied ones. if you get what i'm saying...

lol i just wanna say people are forever conformists. in my own dictionary. and i have no idea why i wanna prove that either. it just popped into my head one fine day and i wanna pen it down yo. lol. congrats to those who survived reading to the end! lols.
hmm think again... i think i just wanna justify my own actions.. to feel better or just revert to being the original conformist since by switching, there ain't NO DIFFERENCE! HAHA. XD yadayadawadeva! =p

:] ureshii~
:] :] :] i'm drowning... =p
this feels silly. >.<
dun care :] LALALA~

りんご ringo　りんご ringo　^^ =p
i've become a shinigami. lols.

okays, i'm crapping here.
that emoticon only have one reason.
one nin/jin/hito.
i just realised... @.@ cuz it's so unlike me. LOLS



nice surprise... yes i wanna give one! =x
but i dunno how to... :( takku...

first and foremost... i'm gonna get a jobbb. though haven go for the interview yett. but shouldn't be much of a problem la huh? haha. yea guess so. lols.
i have no idea why heels can be such lovely and yet BAD, real bad meanies on earth. cuz they dispense blisters, sores and pain. >:[ can't they be softer? high time to get some protective gear.

i asked the hairdresser did she cut her own hair herself...
lol. and she said no.
and i was kinda surprised. =/

i always tried imagining hairstylists cutting their own hair. lol and i thought they can do it by hook or crook even if it looks super unglam and whatnots. lol. so i finally got my answer. kinda same meaning as 能医不能自医. and i tink it's very sadded. cuz you can't use your own skills for yourself and have to entrust your hair to other people when it's ur niche... yea. and have to waste money. lol.

but maybe there are stylists who will diy la huh... just that i don't know any. haha.

今天发生了很多人生中的第一次。
哈哈。请不要想歪，谢谢。

有四个。 笑！

色
粥
婆
华

笑。 XD

i'm just following...




my intuition. =/
trying my best to be cool about it yo.


gahhh... yabai no kimochi... @.@
cool
cool
cool
=/




hehhhh -____-




練習します

やばいいの気持ちが在るよ

i'm getting lazier. =/ haiz...
to exercise. :(

i learnt the meaning of...
"there is no free lunch in this world." haha.

was stopped by some sales ppl den she say she just wants to give me free samples to try and all the crap... blablabla. haha. and i was naive to be led by her. -.- and she say will only take two mins so yada yada i just listen...
so sadded den she ask my age and she said i look lyk 20/20+++ den she asked if there's ppl who says that too. den i said no. -.- i look younger than my actual age laaa!!! that's wad most ppl say. hahaz. maybe it's bcuz of my behaviour? haha dunno. =x this is the FIRST time i heard ppl say the opposite. -.- so actually i'm not that sadded by it. LOLS. =p
and she also suaned my complexion while promoting her package to me...
issit just some sales gimmick? or is my complexion really that bad? T.T
BLABLABLA. as long as i can still look into the mirror and i won't turn away. =x i'm fine with it. lols.



提前了演习
吞噬了顾虑
确实了我已不是从前的自己



yogatta ne~






2 seconds... it was more than that. laughes.
lol so yamapi way of laughing. lols.

on the rides.
and times the coaster flew out the track... lols.
yeaa... fluctuations. :] LOLS.

went bugis ytd with zy and before that with love too. gonna be a frequent bugis-ter lols. my own word! HAHA :D goin there tmr again! for my jappp lesson, tmr first lesson. and goshhh... i haven go revise. damn! forever a procrastinator la huh. >.<

today was a long day i guess. went town to meet sh and nemo. did window shopping, cuz we all bought cny clothes already. and i max the limit this year, unbelievably [not quite so actually. hahaz]. hope i won't buy anything anymore tmr.... zzz.

after that met up the guys at mr tay there.
hmm... and i got kinda... emotional i guess. =/ while reading the note thingy. it flowed and froze.
"...rehearsed..." it seems that i had rehearsed those scenes in my mind too. and self delusion is not what i seek, cuz i'm at least this old to be enlightened by the inevitable cycle of life. but i know no matter the times i rehearsed, rehearsed and reheared, that fateful day that i and many more dread... it's always different from when it actually occurs. and it scares me, immensely. i don't want that day to come, not at least in the near future. cuz now that i felt something similiar, i have no confidence to handle that well, nought.
keeping up with the rehearsals
bringing myself back to reality repeatedly

had topless five and end. damn... the happy feeling sticky chewy chocolate gave me is diminished. =/

i don't like guesses.
i don't like masks.
not to even mention hypocrites.
they IRK me to the max.

transparency brings approximity
but how many can do that?
how many can accept others as they are, without a single facade?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FISH!!!
<3

aishiteru! :]
faster meet up tooooo... XD

yeahh, fought that off. =x
and in the nick of time, arigatou dare ka...

byebye ah guan
byebye GEROLD
byebye muscle. LOL.

nope... they are all saying hi to muscles! LOL.


interviewed by mj senior? lol. not sure. at recruit express... with jess
OHOH!!! i saw a mei nv at the job agency there! she looks like some anime-walk-out character! realli veri pretty. her eyes is like big big but i don't rmb issit watery. den complexion so nice oso. haha. i can't take my eyes off her, i was prentending that i did took off though. =x [nahh i'm straight! in case ppl are wondering...] yea and lastly i think she's a mix yo... genes... hope i can see her again. ^^ finally got a gal eye candy. lols. not that i'm comtemplating to have one ya. and once again.... i'm STRAIGHT!!! HEE :P

den got my book liao. and i got two other books too. lol i'm bewildered by the fact that i'm actually reading yo! wahaha =O and i realised i got fine to pay so i went to use the wad ekiosk thingy but my card got stuck. =/ so noob manz den i gave up in paying my fine after i troubled ppl to help me get my card out. haha. and i thought i saw joanna but den... see wrong!!! @.@ and she kinda helped me found the book i want! haha. i so noob >.<

den on the way home while i was walking, reading. [manz i'm seriously wondering if i'm turning into a geek/nerd OR more上进 now...? HAHA. the latter's latter i hope =/] walao eh!! some old man riding bike pass by then "OI" me. and i was too engrossed so i jumped! damn it. what's his problem la!? roars.
oh before i went home i saw muscle. lols. it's different.
and yabaii... darou kana...... =/

and it's twitching period again.
for the past few days le.
haha but this time round it's the left, LEFT eyelid dudes.
see wad will happen...
lalala~

picking up pace today...
maybe it's cuz i don't wanna think so much. =/
when it's once in a blue moon you see autumn leafs fall,
when it's only occasions the wind blow upon you,
when it's adversities that seems to last throughout,
when it's overtakers that seems to drag you down,
well and my track seems to coincide with life.
was thinking about this while i was distracting myself during my run.

no longer using psychic. haha. good improvement here. lols.
but i missed two calls cuz i went to run. -.-
hope they call back tmr or something... gahhh =/

err... and i'm O.O...
hmm... maybe it's time to do self reflection...? haiz.
just swallow it baaa. dang... loomy.
when it's me but i don't like it.
so i throw it away / just live with it but ignore it / live with it and hate it?
hmm... no idea. =/ for the moment i shall just hate it... gahhh.

okays... a livelier note. ashita... hee hee heh heh.
but den oso not so lively lehh. cuz someone's saying sayonara? aiyoo. >.<

shyt >.< why do i feel lyk a stalker?... zzz =x
nahh i'm not! lols. i tink... oh wadevas.

the think with short hair is i haveta comb after i bathe... =/ to prevent having bad hair day the next dayy. suckie... if not will qiao lai qiao qu. lol. serious, when i had long hair they dun have to be combed after bath... they will just fall neatly and straightly after washed. i'm not saying i nvr comb at all laa. only after bathh. yeap. but anyways it makes no difference leh. haha just felt lyk ranting bout this ya.

joggie. yeahh! one round round the reservoir. wahaha. i gonna change my route for jogging for a longer distance.
den i decided to roam about after my jog and i found out that i have bbq pits in my estate. -.- so ulu that place! it's renovated that's why i didn't know bout it. haha but nvm now i noe. lol.

jobbb... it wont come looking for you. and trying to use psychic to look for one is >.<
yaya i know. but wad mrs teh said is true lehh. we will be working for the rest of our lives until wad 60+++? so spending this few/several months loafing around ain't that bad an idea yea? HAHA.

いつもの別れ道で 何も出来ない　わかってる
itsumo no wakare michi de nani mo dekinai wakatteru

part and parcel of life...
zannin desu.kanashii desu.

but what's worse is hanging on and breathe the vast distance between...
i have never felt it with this intensity, hitting without a warning. i thought i had already let go 4 years ago. i thought i had already learnt to face up and accepted suchs. but i guess not yett...
and yet there's nothing to be done...
cuz it's stagnant. cuz it's the way this is. cuz it's meant to be like that. it's hard to even try. it's suffocating whether i try or not, but maybe less suffocating to just stay in this temporary suffocating comfort zone. paradox? zzz. but how would i know when i haven tried. =/ it's hard to test the waters. but maybe these are all just excuses.

so... i chose the latter anyways. to not test at all.


and up till this point of my life... i guess it's time to re-prioritise. =/

ytd finally met 3o4. wahaha. :D got allie, sw, felix, jc, hua jie. long time no see them le... heh heh. :]
oh and b4 that i met joanna at bedok library there. and that's cuz i was walking home from the interchange. damn! i really wan bikeee. haiz.
and peeps pls rmb to tap ur not-so-ez link card when you get down from now onwards! :]


later going to meet even even even long long time no see sec sch mates. haha. and finally our clique has full attendance unlike the previous r1 outing. lols.
and my butt's still here... hmm... hope i wont be late. =/


tmr going KL/JB somewhere in malaysia to take family portrait. woohoo~ the last one taken was when i was in pri 3. lol. i wonder how will this turn out. haha. i'm gonna wear my prom dress, in case i won't ever wear it again. LOL.
and 家家有本难念的经 so i'm kinda piss at someone. sheeshh. this sucks. :(
but nvm, karma will do justice i guess. =/ but maybe this is just the debt incurred in the past life... 因果循环吧 =/

我相信
当那时刻到来时
我会勇敢面对
我会学习释怀
我会微笑告别

and i finally get my LLLLL before year 2009 arrives. woots. thankew kx. aiya u oso wont read this. LOL. L is super wuber duper cuteeee. haha! loves! i first saw him sitting in the display window at the 4th floor of tm at action city i think? haha. den totally fell in love with him. =p and after awhile, he's gone.. >:( kx went to asked and either L's too ex or he's not for sale. but if it's the latter then why would it be gone? LOL.
but i have yet to assemble him. as in change parts. LOL. so funnn. happyyy. :] no pictures cuz simply i'm LLLL...azy! lols. and there's no continuation of my tw trip as un-promised just proves my point! =x wahahaha =O

how much is that L-ly in the window?
the one with the watery eyes.
how much is that L-ly in the window?
lalala~ i dun rmb the original liao. hahaha XD.
so cant gai4 bian1.

and after reading one person's blog... i'm interested in reading a book. haha. but too bad it's loaned out already when i went to lend it ytd. oh wells... try again some other day. and also, i think i read too much so i'm kinda overloaded with too many thoughts. =/ nvm... take time to digest. haha.

superficiality of humans ever so evident.
looks, material stuffs, money.
but what about character?
befriending people with the character that one thinks is good... er.. which is variedly defined...?
so are those people considered superficial too? hmm... i think they are...?
k i'm kinda stuck and don't wanna think liao.
and my eyelids are heavvyyy. shall hit my bed.

Name: eunice
Date: 1/1/2009
Colorgenics Number: 61352407

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Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!!

went countdown at marina and as expected it's ppl mountain ppl sea! LOL. before that went to eat at BAKERZin. but den didnt eat the cakes there. manz, i wan try! =p
and there may not be anymore tradition this following year.
so did u regret not following the last time last yr? lol. <3 size="2">:D


and i cant wait for two star course this year =p WAHAHAHA =O


OHOH!! BOOHOO T.T we have to pay ADULT FARE now!!! ZZZ. :(
i thought the govt wanted ppl to take public tpt? but why issit still so ex...