いつもの別れ道で 何も出来ない　わかってる
itsumo no wakare michi de nani mo dekinai wakatteru

part and parcel of life...
zannin desu.kanashii desu.

but what's worse is hanging on and breathe the vast distance between...
i have never felt it with this intensity, hitting without a warning. i thought i had already let go 4 years ago. i thought i had already learnt to face up and accepted suchs. but i guess not yett...
and yet there's nothing to be done...
cuz it's stagnant. cuz it's the way this is. cuz it's meant to be like that. it's hard to even try. it's suffocating whether i try or not, but maybe less suffocating to just stay in this temporary suffocating comfort zone. paradox? zzz. but how would i know when i haven tried. =/ it's hard to test the waters. but maybe these are all just excuses.

so... i chose the latter anyways. to not test at all.


and up till this point of my life... i guess it's time to re-prioritise. =/