Dignity.

it weighs different across people.
yes, many a times it is unavoidable that poeple have to forsake that.
but isn't there a limit before it hits the well?

at least i have that markstick over there. not too high, neither is it too low.
and whenever i'm toeing the line.
i have that alert mode within and that's when the turmor kicks in.
Geez... but somehow i'ld find a compromise and knock the wall out.
GAH. whether it's a perfect compromisation, i can't say otherwise...

Just because it was so peaceful the way she left,
just because we know she didn't struggle on the way to gonggong
just because I saw her a day before she left
just because it didn't really matter as I'll definitely go that day
just becausesss...

I'm not grieved.
I'm just sad.
I could have been better, more filial.
BUT, this talk is empty just because all that's left is just ashes and bones.

But i'm really glad i asked her long before how she and grandpa met.

i think this is just another episode of lagness.
sincerely wished so...

on the other hand this also meant another.
no signal, intuition, gut feeling showing the other...




我是否看透
我并不清楚
可是我认为
我不应该。。

Today had farewell gathering before Mr. Tay sets on the journey transforming into Dr. Tay. Total green with envy. =p JIAYOU!!!

Also had a belated bday celebration for sh and gene. ahaha! one turned 19 the other 20! WHAT A VAST DIFFERENCE! XD Really nice chocolate cake from Awfully Chocolate! YUM YUM! <3

Before that, some of us went teoheng sing k. and i was late. haha. was so comfortably nua-ing at home that's why. HAHAHA! XP After that bused down to the steamboat place. And sometimes i really wonder how much i ate in steamboats. Cuz when you eat in small small amounts, that may just be a false front but in actual fact, you can't visualise the heap of food that you down. haha so i also dunno la huh. but anyway was full ah! Honestly, the food wasn't that FANtastic and is overpriced, BUT the time there was FUNtastic compensated it! Oh wells, done with the weighing...

Then (hmmm... i wonder i sld just call Mr. or by name? hahaha) gave us gals a ride in his car to PP! hahaha. Then the surgeon bear was no longer there. :( but two new faces. ok la... had fun with them! :) we saved the grad bear from the strangle he was put through. lol. kudos to us! But, now... he's doing head'stand' in the air. =x much cuter with no hunchback. lol! then went high and all with the bears. hahahahahaha~! pooled @ the building opposite PP with koi... 25%'s not enough. =x HAHAHAS. Then home sweet home....

NOT UNTIL, i realised my hp was with sh.... ahhhahaha. PAISEH MAN, auntie prez! so met her at bedok to take it back. klutty me.... =/



hai, i want to update here regularly so i can look back on them in the future. lol. sounds as though i'm aging at the speed of light. CHOI! anyway that's what i wanna keep up with even though i will be buzzing at full speed for the first half of this sem! :D Totally neglected here during the holidays.

That's all folks! :D

Had the earliest lecture 830am to 1030am
and guess the time i reach home... 8pm!!

after that went with sw to zap textbook. haha. finally learnt how to do it. thanks to auntie puay! :)
and i tell you!!! dunno what happen!! i was done and only a miserable handful of pieces of paper came out with only one copied when i pressed two. stunned @.@ then had to do it all over again. 200 plus pages!!! *PENG* so in the end reach hall at 2pm.

then needed to go canvass for QP. that talking session thingy. 15 bucks 2 hours. in the end dunno wad happen again no need go le. -_______-

and pj bought fbt from nus bazaar! why ntu dun have?! 3G-ed to choose then finally set off back home at ard 5. Then then then! i went to top up but some probs pop out. dunno it's my own wrong or the machine's. but i hope to get my $20 back!!! T.T dunno why that day 神使鬼差 i went to add another 10 bucks when normally i just top up 10. :(:( haiz haiz. hope i can get it back T.T

then met pj at buona vista back to bedok. saw pasar malam. did some shopping to get rid of new-sem blues. and bought ramly for dinner 3 bucks, bought mini watering can 1.20 buck for my pot of plant at hall :) aiyooo~ can't wait for it to grow up! :D then i saw the chocolate beancurd that was claimed to be from taiwan! so tempt me to buy it! and i wanted to! so i place order then asked how much. OMGGGGG $2.50 for that thing! @.@ then i cannot buy it cuz i really didnt have enough cash. -______- cuz paid 13 bucks to pj just now for me n mel's fbt and need to re-top up another 10 buck for travel!! totally broke!
and they gave me weird stares! pls la, they are just an illegal false front black market. i wouldnt have bought it if i knew the price so... a blessing in disguise perhaps? cuz i wont have the guts to reject it if i know of the exobitant price, just that i was really broke then! so maluu.... ahhhahahaha! whatever man.

if a person knows what you are asking for and didn't give the answer that u wanted to know.
then it only means..., she doesn't see a need for you to know.
or either just simply don't want you to know!

and this is only a simple cue which i can't believe u can't read.

发现掌握到之后
是一份满足感
所以应该为自己而努力
不应该再抱着那些悲观想法
哀怨抛弃。

whenever i'm sleepy already and after i brushed my teeth, i'm sprung alive. -_________-"

this.
is.
EVIDENCE.

nights!

There are times when i have things to blog about, when offline. but then..., whenever i have the time to blog, i will forget what i wanted to blog about!!!

omg, the very much dreaded 2nd semester is approaching, fast and furious. i guess i will try to pull myself out of this deep shyt... less i let history repeat itself. then i'll be too sorry! gosh. NO IT WON'T!!! :D

My Holidays :)
4 Dec: Auntie club meet @ Town then jc's thingy then 85
7 Dec: Outing with zy [don't rmb where =x]
8 Dec: Gokusen movie with pj & mel
13 Dec: Lina's bday party
19-25 Dec: Caroling for canvass lalala~
26 Dec: o7s3o4 outing @ Bugis then Minds and mj at jc's
27 Dec: Cut hair, collect clothes and @ grams
28 Dec: Party @ woon howe's castle
29 Dec: Register for jap with mel then shopping haha
30 Dec: Neighbour's wedding dinner then clubbing @ double o back to hall
31 Dec: Traditional countdown with repeeps, mac-ed coincidence then pj's
3 Jan: Buffet @ pat jie's house see charlene cutie :p
6 Jan: Block banner.. awe i like the eye. haha!
7 Jan: Dinner with hallies, dessert, pooled then journey back to the east. last train
8 Jan: Lunch @ thub vicinity, sing k with ex colleagues include pj then bridged, Invictus movie with mjpeeps @ Iluma another last train back

and on top of those... hall trainings and matches weaved in that ends on 7th Jan.

whoooshhhhhhh~! what a big sweat~
i think i missed out some too. lols.
tada. my holiday journal...

11th Jan: First day of sem 2, finally planted my 駆蚊草! :) GROWTH DAY!
Well... the only thing to brighten up the post holiday blues.