Due to the desires...
on wants rather necessaries... ain't so?

further more the desire to pursue wants and desires rather than time spent on obligations.
Just a waste of them..



I wanna eat 甜在心里 durian puree again. >:(
1st: went too late closed!
2nd: shopped for groceries till it's closed
3rd: went afrer commission parade! finally on time. BUT SOLD OUT
4th: ask hallie da pao. FINALLY~!

the exorbitant price is detering me from spending on it. haiz.
let them fight it out. hmmm...

i realised...
it's impossible.

ha!



just fuck end this.
i don't want to become someone i'm not.
but still it might be considered as a part of me?
fuck this idea.

the effect that venezia gave didn't seemed to last. =/

venezia venezai venezai...
and the chanting carry ons........................



ha.. haHA! Marginal Utility...
It's in our everyday life! so unbecomingly...
creeping in...



and hell yea i dunch know what nuts i'm sprouting here.








p/s: you go try it out~ perhaps u will be thankful and more appreciative.

i hope to not fucking reach the brink of my tolerance level.
can't believe this could actually happen!

breathe it in... suck it down... turn down the boundaries detector...
question own yardsticks... reach a forced-had-to compromisation...
DOING THIS ALL OVER?!
why can't i do what i wanna do?!
what can't i ignore what the 'angel voice' has got to say?!
it has always been like that. i know.
trying to understand...
but it's in the genes?!

fuck it.
this is what that actaully irks me to core!?



wad's with this weather?!
why the sudden grey sky?!
and the thunderstorm lurking beneath the fluffy clouds?!
ha.. HA.. hahaHA...

don't want to relive the feeling years back i had. fuck them...
not the same intensity but the same...

Really thank my family and o7s3o4 for their support and others! :]

Act 1 wasn't really that ideal. But what could we ask for when all of us "put our hearts into it, put our love for QP into it!" hahas~! Keeping that in mind, we managed to survived the petty glitches here and there in act 1. bravo team effort~! :D

Everyone really gets emotional as we phase into act 2. It's really a sense of accomplishment when mel told me the audience were sniffing through act 2 even with some humour injected here and there. :D "so satisfying~!" hahas. and now hall fivers are addicted to either the lines, actions or the lyrics. hahahas! even my friends can rememberthem just at once! Quite amazing since they only saw the whole thing once, whereas for as it's infinite times that we went through everything repeatedly. :D

There were times i really felt like giving up, when it seems so disheartening and the journey bound with so many obstacles. It was truly suffocating and I was so under it, where i really had break downs? Certainly, I'm really glad i didn't throw the towel in.

Now dealing with the inertia and so much more... What a task! :(

Woah~! gotta pen my thoughts down before they disappear.

hmm staging in a musical is so so so different from performing in a band concert. well.. that's the only other stage performance I had ever experienced you see. Anyway I wasn't really surprised that I'm not really very nervous. haha. i mean I've been so used to my lagging emotions and though i thought this time it's only lagging but it's not even showing up! hahaha. relief or disappointment? i don't know either. I guess that's because i can't really see the audience well eh? thanks to the follow lights, spot lights and face lights? which ever. hahs! :D

Somehow everything just went in a blink of an eye and POOF! we are already at the climax of Quintsical Productions that marks the end, but only for this sem perhaps? Really proud of our team today!! :]

i feel the heat now, literally i meant! too high or what? hope not fever or what. sheeshh... Maybe i shall take the Den-zen tmr. =/

OMGOSH... Remember how i told myself to brace through the long cast trainings and the sleepless nights doing design... but now that it's coming to an end............................

I'll pray for it...
for what i wanna achieve. ;]