can i just, really just for one day, stop being me.
what am i like that!?
being me makes every bad thing more amplfied than ever.
friends, u might have thought u know me, the kind of person i am.
but just stop and think.
if anyone gets to read this, do you even have the slightest idea/hint on what exactly I'm talking about here?
If you don't. Yes you don't know me.

if i had the slightest hint on the kind of wave i was creating with all my plans.
I wouldn't have made it this big.

it was thankfully that the hair technique taught by ting help me this wee bit to remain as me, my character, my thoughts, my beliefs. those beliefs, i have no idea why they are inborn in me. i hate them, but i just can't seemed to shake them off me. Them being part of me... you can never imagine, how torturous this can be.



And if the only thing, that can actually chase the clouds
and restore the rainbows in me, in that future time...
i can't seem to believe, can't seem to be enlightened - why it's it.